Introducing - the new family member.

NO, my mom did not give birth..
NO, I did not give birth..
NO, my sister still have months away for her next labour...

YES, this little precioussssss...

Err...tak lah 'little' sangat pun.  Agak bulky dan berbentuk ke'bapak-bapak'an.  But I don't care.  It's one heck of a device!!!  And I'm scraping every penny in my pocket to get this jumbo!  Forget credit card - it's cash!  I'm living my life free from debts -- and I'll be totally broke this month..huhu!!

Huhu, sangat suka, sangat suka, sangat suka.  And I'm out of words!  Touch screen, athan reminder, 2G memory, 3G mobile, navigator, media player, microsoft office, qwerty keyboard, yadda yadda yadda (Masni blabberings on the endless feature she doesn't know how to 'pronounce')...

YES, PDA berbentuk ke'bapak-bapak'an kena di'baju'kan dengan baju ke'budak-budak'an untuk menghasilkan aura yang seimbang.  It's pink -- ewww... pink!  Bright pink!  That's the best choice in the rack apart from the :
** black pouch (which will enhance the ke'bapak-bapak'an feature)
** a slim sequinned black pouch (nice, but too slim and couldn't fit the jumbo)
** leapord patterned pounch (erghh....)
** pouch pink berbulu-bulu (eeewwwww....)

See how the pink stands out from the bunch?

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How misunderstanding reminds me of our anniversary date.

SMSes on 12 December 2007, 11.53pm
Azmul : Ada 7 minit lagi ni...  Kamu dah lupa lah tu...  (Errrrr.... special event ke??  Oh, the day of the -err- big declaration..?
Me : Hmmm... Tak lupa kooottt...  Baru ingat.. Hehehe... Bagi surprise ek.. (Lame attempt of covering up)

At 11.57am, he called..

"Hello..."
"Helloowwwww..."  Dengan gaya menggedik..
"Aaa...eekk....ukkk...."  Line tak clear la pulak.
"Ha?  Pomondo demo cakap ni?  Tak dengar lah...!"
"Aaa...eekk...ukkk..."
"Ha? Ape? Ape?"

-Tut tut - And the line went dead.

At 12.03am, I called him.

"Hellooooowww..." 
"Hmm..  Ngantuk lah.."  Chist!!  He's killing the mood!
"Lupa lah tuuu..."
"Lupa ape?  Ni mesti kamu dah salah faham ni.."
"Ape pulak salah faham... Habis, amende yang kamu kata lagi 7 minit lagi tu.  Bukan nak tunggu midnight ke nak bagi surprise surprise dekat orang?"
"Confirm!!  Salah paham.  Orang cakap kan tadi, kredit dah habis, sampai tengah malam ni je valid.  Itu yang orang kata 7 minit lagi."
"Oh... Ingatkan - err - anniversary..."  Scheiss... termalu sendiri..

Well .. in fact -- no, I don't remember our anniversary at all.  It's somewhere around December 2004, 2005...??  Who cares~

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I'm thinking of letting go of my past in an attempt to let my hands free for the coming future - which means that I'm going to dispose the entries 3 years ago...  Erm... Should I?

When you have nothing to do, you will have nothing to say...

Ey, that's sounds like a cool 'pepatah melayu moden' la dude!  Haha, I have nothing to do, and now I'm crapping (read: talking craps) about pepatah melayu moden.  I got 5C for BM SPM - darn, who am I to talk about pepatah melayu moden ait?

Yesterday, purchase a dopod PDA!
Today, meet some fibre people, for some part  time 3D designing!
Tomorrow, dopod PDA, HERE I COME!!
A day after tomorrow, meet Wong and listen to her yappings about insurance, saving plus investment.

Therefore, my mode today : A bit less socially retarded than a day before~  And a PDA, finally!!!  Surely that'll change my mode for the coming days!

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Here's how a kid's brain relate towel-like material with nudity.

Hakim : Mama, mama nak pergi mana?
Along : Mama nak keluar.
Hakim : Keluar pergi mana?
Along : Mama nak hantar atok pegi Kompleks Tabung Haji
Hakim : Ooo... nak keluar dengan atok ek?  Tapi kenapa atok keluar tak pakai baju???

Innocence are so cute! 

Abah will be performing the Hajj this year.  Although I keep on complaining about Abah all the time, but then, there's a brink of tears hearing his voice in the phone during his departure.  When tears are involved, it's serious stuff dude!

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During Idzerq's wedding, I - representing me, Habsah, and Mastiqah, wrote something that sound like "Congratulations on the wedding!  We'll be waiting for your juniors!" on the wedding present.

So, today, I found out in Idzerq's blog that she's getting annoyed with the 'bila nak beranak crap' people keep on badgering her these days. 

And I was like : "Oh, shit!"  and the image of writing 'waiting for your juniors' keeps on flashing in front of my eyes.

Darn -- now I feel guilty.  Maybe I'm one of the people she mentioned in her blog.  Sorry if that statement offended her, it's just something that I feel stands out from the standard 'congratulations' greetings.

Bersalah di tali gantung rasenye siut. 

Macam harem aje blogdrive memalam – er – pepagi buta ni, ape kes redirect pi ‘searchnut’?  This is nuts~  Patut ke migrasi besar-besaran?

Siang tadi abah buat drama dekat CIMB branch UM. 

“It’s not about the money.  This is the question of principles.  A very well-known bank like this shouldn’t have delayed this matter for months.  I’m in a business myself too; I know how the process should be.  I want to see your manager…!” (note: with his incredibly loud voice)

There, now you see from where my part of rage comes from.  I’m sorry Miss CIMB, even I can’t stop him when he’s in that kind of mood.  And, yeah, free attention for the day.

Now, that’s quite embarrassing.  At 23 years old, Abah still insist to accompany me to the bank to settle my wayyyy dued account masa zaman remaja-remaji dulu which makes me feel incapable of doing anything.  And he yelled at the staff for things that I should’ve settled – which I preferred it to be in a mild diplomatic manner. 

Whatever it is, it’s his money.  Yell all he like, I’m so-not-gonna-let him accompany me to any bank anymore.

To think about it, if it happens to be some friend or somebody you knew, surely this kind of attitude will make you distant yourself from that person.  Hey, you don’t want him to be making any drama when you’re around.  You need a skin of crocodile to be in that kind of situation.  But, somehow, when it turns out to be thy father – what happens to me was – I forget about the whole thing, and just respect him the way he is, my father. 

Yeah, yeah, surely I’m mad at him for dragging me into this hooca-pooca, by which the feeling only lasted about 15 minutes.  And later on, it’s just something I should be aware of, because at least, he’s not afraid to voice what he believes in.

Err, he is still not voting this year.

He’s just my father.

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Semalam mimpi kena gigit dengan ular.  Bukan patuk, mind you.  Gigit-gigit manja gitu.  Tak kira lah, gigit ke, patuk ke, ngeri suit!  Ada orang nak meminang ke?  Hnss hnsss… Nak keluar rumah pun malas macam beruang, ada hati berangan orang masuk meminang.  Chit!

Tadi pulak mimpi masuk penjara sambil kerja dekat tempat baru.  It’s either I miss Michael Scofield too much that I feel like I’m happier in prison, or I’m just nuts.

Azmul kata, “Kalau orang mimpi yang ngeri kan, nanti mesti orang fikir ‘ni mesti mimpi, aku nak bangun tido lah’, pastu orang pun memang terbangun tido.  Kamu try lah camtu.” 

(T_T)

I’m going to stop the habit of ‘post-subuh’ sleeping hour.  And, maybe I’ll try Azmul’s tips if another snake is trying to attack me again.

Finally – I'm back home!!!  Yiehaa.  Currently in Subang Jaya, enjoying the bits and pieces of being home and sleep till the sun in straight above the head (err, till my room is too hot to stay in), unlimited amount of consumable foods, and endless hours of CSI, Kim Possible, Spongebob, Oprah, and – err, Sehati Berdansa.  Hey, watching a dancing football player is pure entertainment, dude!

Anyway, being home means I have to bear with my mom's 28.8Kbps internet connection which always ends up as me shutting off the computer when most of the time it takes about 20 minutes to get to my bloody inbox!  So, no-no to long entries, and no-no-heck-no to pictures until the wireless thingy came true.

Here's some of the things that I was suppose to update on 22nd December.

The verdict?

Positive!  I get to work at an instable company with not that amazing reputation but a very renowned brand with yummy salary and I love it!  Yeah, moi will be working in Shah Alam, a less than 15 minutes drive to workplace from my house. 

If you think your family is weird, think again.  Considering that I have two job offers coming simultaneously, Abah dengan kuasa veto-nya gather our siblings for a little meeting on deciding which direction I should choose.  And guess what, it's a formal meeting with ucapan pembukaan and stuff! 

'Perjumpaan ini diadakan untuk kita membincangkan serta memberi pandangan mengenai pilihan kerja yang Ani patut pilih.'

See, that's what I mean by 'it's like being in a court' statement.  Gosh, a meeting for MY future job?  Come on!  It's ME who have to bear the consequences~  There I go explaining to them WHY I have come out with that decision and the pros and cons of everything.  It's like a freaking interview.

Anyway, since adik-beradik ku sudah sangat masak with Abah's endless drama, they just played on with it, and they agreed on one thing – MY initial decision.  Oh, thanks to Emak too since she's the only one who can tune Abah's hard rock opinion.

I am so-over with the interview thingy.

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Last Saturday, I watched the Cornetto's 'Love Perhaps' show – and – darn, a Malaysian show of looking for potential partner is boring dude.  It's about a bunch of perempuan-perempuan yang dah memang cantik and sexy and guys with prospective looks and career dating one another and finding love.  The episode that time is about teaching these people the hitting tips and tricks.  It's lame + lame + lame + lame + lame.  You just look at their faces, and you knew straight away they don't need any education on the do's and don't of flirting.  Their looks are enough for the unintended flirts.  The eye lashes?  Playing with the hair?  The gedik act?  Getting a girl's number?  Bowring!  And while they were doing the flirting training with some so-called experts, the 20 minutes scene is full of these bunches laughing at their friends, and another laughter, and another laughter.  I was like "Huh..?  Is that supposed to be funny?"  Syok-sendiri best explains that show.  They need a new film editor!

You want some real drama?  Put some hideous looking chicks or some obnoxious guy, and that would be more entertaining than looking at some perfect 10 chicks and guy!  We can name the show 'The Love from Within' or 'The Transformation' or 'Transformer' or 'The Swan', where more informative slots can be included on how to improve the physical appearances, cleansing inner self, boost the self-esteem, being beauty inside-out!

Gosh, I'm over-reacting over a stupid show~

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Idzerq, my shopping buddy and counselor nakal, has finally walked the aisle.  Err, takde aisle pon.  Exaggerate aje.  She finally tied the knot with this gentleman, Mazri.  It was an amazingly beautiful and wonderful and nice wedding.  Ala garden gitu, and all is done in her very own house.  And this is a compliment straight from my heart, Idzerq look so pretty and angelic that day, as always.

Anyway babe, sorry I couldn't post the picture.  Remember, 28.8Kbps!  Hoping the best for her future ahead.  Can't wait for the little juniors.

Sigh, another friend's wedding.  Yes people, I have finally reach the stage where everybody is getting married except me.  Huhu!

1.10am.

I'm sitting here, staring at the computer screen, opening the notepad, with an uncertain feeling of confusion and uneasiness.  The mind keep on revolving on one thing: tomorrow I'm leaving Pasir Gudang – for good – and just thinking about it hit me with a mixture of emotions that causes me NOT to sleep at this peculiar hour.

Happy: for finally being able to be near the family. 
Excited: for the future ahead.
Enthusiastic: for dreaming a better tomorrow. 
Full spirited: for a new career.
Ambitious: for a step forward reaching for the dream.

And…

Very very sad: to leave Pasir Gudang. 

Approximately 1 year, 7 months, and 12 days ago, I step into the unknown town of Pasir Gudang, with the exact same feelings as above.  Changes – it’ll surely make you feel happy and sad at the same time.  The mysterious town of Pasir Gudang is actually a little town full of its own excitement.  Murder, rape, high profile crimes, big fire near Titan is just the tip of the iceberg.

I can never forget the fantastic Tebrau City, the cool Jusco Permas, the hangout port at Singgah Selalu restaurant JB, the ronggeng port of Danga Bay, the shopping heaven of Angsana, and our very own Padang Layang-layang with their very uniqueness, and surely the best padang I’ve ever been to. 

Working here is THE stepping stone.  A stage where I transform myself, from stage 1 to stage 3, from a student to a work-not-so-holic, from a nobody into a somebody, from a timid character into a more confident being.  THIS is the place where I grow up tremendously.

Despite the fact that I keep on blabbering about how work suck and how the people around me is simply irritating, finally I realize, that THEY have been a very important part in my life.  Really, really important.

The Boss – for being a teacher, friend, and enemy.  A salute of respect to him, for teaching me from the smallest thing into the biggest issue, from enhancing my skills of answering emails properly, into organizing, into tremendous technical input, into creating a unique environment in the office.  Thank you for the time, experience sharing, and the endless amount of food treat, ice-cream, rookies steakhouse, lina dollah kedai makan, STS restaurant, Latios Pusat Bandar, Crystal Hotel sushi house, Dek Non for my farewell dinner – just to name a few.

Ana – for being a teacher, friend, neighboring colleague, enemy, motivator, and a big sister.  Yes, I trash about her a lot.  But, the fact that I can’t deny, she taught me a lot about life, and about opening my mind into the bigger perspective.  A great shoulder to rely on, a very dependable companion, and our very own Miss Know-It-All.

Dan – for the laughter, for the new friendship, for his network abilities, for the funny little fights, and for the trip to Singapore. 

Kak Jun – for the company, and laughter, and great listener, and gossiping partner.

CAM people – for being such a great neighbour.

Store team – for a great last three weeks.

Zam and the other crushes – for the cute face as eye treatment in the office.

Everybody – for a great deal of reasons.

It’s time to let go and to move on.  To really forgive and forget the misdemeanors, and just laugh about it, and step into the future with a positive mind.  Thank you all for making such a big impact in my life, and for being a family.  Hoping for a great future ahead for everybody.

Sorry for everything, and thanks for everything.  I cherish the moments. 

I’m going back to Subang Jaya…  Do pray for my success.